There are days every now and again I pretend I’m okay but that’s not what gets me. What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say, and watching you walk away…

I woke up in the middle of the night and knew that I had pretty much entered hell.

It was hardly a conscious thought, but now, in hindsight, I knew then.

I woke up fully this morning and couldn’t move.

You know that feeling you get when your body hates you and you feel like tiny, angry elves are stabbing you repeatedly in the neck from the inside, trying their hardest to break free and releasing their angry elf fury?

I know you must know that feeling.

When you sleep in your bed in a way that makes your body so upset that your neck just decides to say one giant Fuck You and not work properly.

So today, I have walked around all kinds of unbalanced, had trouble getting dressed, cried because it hurt, had to turn my entire body just to be able to look at something, and sat on the couch with a heating pad tied around my body.

This better go away. And fast.

I have shit to do.

He ain’t the leavin’ kind, He’d never walk away even from those who don’t believe and wanna leave Him behind, He ain’t the leavin’ kind…

This evening of Easter, I don’t have much to say.  It’s been a day full of family-time, and it’s been really nice.   I can’t say I’m really religious, but I counted today as a win the moment I stepped into church this morning and didn’t bust into flames.

With that said, I will leave you with this:

I didn’t have any pictures of bunnies or Jesus saved on my computer, so this’ll have to do.

I can also tell you this quick anecdote about a nerd-alert moment I had at the bar last weekend:

Me, to a man/boy I’d never met or seen before: IF HARRY POTTER WAS REAL, WHAT HOUSE WOULD YOU BE IN?!

Him: I FUCKING HATE HARRY POTTER!

Me, to Seneca: He’s probably in Slytherin.

Harry Potter Nerd Alert!! I’m in love and can’t get enough!!!